Decissions

Once you take a decision don’t think backwards keep going don’t question yourself to much see the validity of your decision and move forward, risk don’t fear mistakes keep going walk don’t look back you risk to fall decide that this experience will teach you – this is the discipleship needed in life and needed to walk as a disciple of Christ he himself told us this as we find in scripture. Do what gives you peace not intensity – intensity is not useful in life it is not stillness and it is not our destiny why we are born. We are born for peace and for peace and the stillness of the mind to control the intensity of the mind and the down it produces such as when riding a horse that runs that slows, according to his will and yet we need to command him and we need to tell him what to do. Yes emotions are like a racing horse one needs to tame them one needs not let them control him one need not let him walk him. One needs to grow and do what is necessary to do. So think forward never fear be positive look brighter use your guts and move yet before see what the Divine will wills – Discern but ones you choose decide to choose and walk in it the decision fully to live fully a life with its own risks that brings. 

HUMBLE VS PRIDE

God knows everything about you and he knows you... We even thou we can not admit to adore ourselves and to want to be adored... We have as individual human a tendency to fixate ourselves s on ourselves rather then to give service... this is because of our egos... Yet we are born to transcend our egos  and this is threw humility and painful confrontation of our limitation of our prideness... threw humility we are save we receive Grace we feel comfortable to give our broken self to God. Threw humility we love ourselves God loves us  as we remember that God love the humble but reject the pride the greatest sin the first one that Adam and Eve committed... Yet Christ saved us.

Verse to Check up Samuel 16:17

Some thoughts I thought during these days about philosophies that tried to replace Christianity.

Some atheist will tell you life is meaningless that life is about nihilism others will follow the Sartrean idea that as follows in his main theme in La Nausée is that, that life is meaningless unless a person makes personal commitments that give it meaning and in fact Sartre believed that he found meaning in Marxism. Arthur Schopenhauer who was a German philosopher best known for his book, The World as Will and Representation (German: Die Welt als Wille und Vorstellung), in which he claimed that our world is driven by a continually dissatisfied will, continually seeking satisfaction in a way a will to always grow and that humans seek meaning due to suffering and death. This is because if life does not have meaning and in neither suffering and death both which are part of life life  becomes meaningless to live as we choose not at all to live thus not to choose to struggle at all as life is a struggle worth of it. In fact on Suicide Albert Camus said that "the one truly serious philosophical problem is suicide." Albert Camus thinks that he solve this as he committed himself to revolt a revolt to this meaninglessness to this nihilism but again why live as death is inevitable and life thus remains meaninglessness as this is what lives in end your death no continuation of meaning. But meaning is alive until it remains living when it dies it becomes meaningless but meaning is has worth. Life is worth living for meaning to keep infinitely growing... while 

Yet meaning if it exists forever death needs to be conquered else it is bounded by time and bounded to die and become meaningless. Thus what is the worth insisting on the fact knowing that meaning will become meaningless to ll and die. Buddhist solved it by living the here an now for them with courage. But then what is the aim of Revolt against meaninglessness knowing that you already lost the point - to live in the here and now meaning which requires to live death with meaning yet whether God exists or not.

My Journey Politics/Life/Philosophy - A BIT OF BIO

My vision change with time. As one starts to think in his adolescence at such tender young age one start to  flirt with new ideas. In my case I flirted with Communism the idea that God is opium of the people and the philosophical problem of infinitism that created lots of debate in me and anxiety and much more.... In a way during these year having removed God, questioning whether I exist and trying to find a political ideal I called myself Socialist and free thinker while I also was influenced by George Orwell and H.G Wells all this happened around the ages of 14 and 15. This was supported by the fact that in the Catholic school I attended I saw many things not conforming to the Bible. During this time I kept the dictum that St Augustine who I saw as the best Saint thou I refused Chatolocism I never refused authentic people whatever baground they came from authenticity comes only when one  love truth and this fascinated me. Also he was a saint but he experimented in his life experiments and perhaps because he messed in his life and his thinking I found him interesting with his search for truth as I continue to see today a story of redemption in him. At school at Stella Maris Malta Gzira was in fact waisted time I did not learn important things many things I got them alone while at this age between 15-16 I was more preocupied with philosophy. One teacher told me that you going to not pass your Math exam something which I did not surely do I passed the O level of maths not because of her as she ran like a Ferrari in her teaching and not giving chance for questions I asked which teachers pissed themselves telling me they where either a nuisance or out of subjects yes Stella Maris Gzira was horrible..... And wasn’t to my standard a non true intellectual school a waist of time. Mediocrety was daily and normality among  students and teachers who were uninterested in searching the truth and no creativity and some were even given preferences amongst harsh bullying that was present from everyone.... As all this deduce.

At 16 end of my 15 years old I gave a try to write and as I was inspired by my teacher in private lessons of Maltese that thought me poetry while also loved and had my emotional disturbances of having to face previous and continuous infatuation and to deal with it and I found writing helps while I thus wrote without knowing and a why. I thus my first experimentation with writing was to explore poetry and to see what will happen and after 5 years evolved my book Skizzi Assurd was ready to publish at 19... mostly 19 enough and by 20 started to publish it by 21 I did so I self published it. This was done with the help of Prof. Fr. Peter Serachino Inglot who I discussed a lot of matters with him while I realized that he was a true priest humble, intelligent and you could see Christ living in him as I grew and in this project of poetry even thou it had intervals. I wrote also a play and first knew him in fact because I went to interview him first on this play a true philosophical Absurd play were I expressed my philosophical problems part of a course project I decided to write on of Systems of knowledge – ontological and epistemological ones. (A audio of the interview in Maltese is on the internet)... In the end I always found school boring indoctrinating especially the Communist building of the high school Junior College and that in reality was full of students that did not wanted to exercise their mind deeply but want it to be superficial and at the same with the teachers mentality. At that time I was a rebel a Camusian and I found that Educators and education wanted to destroy my intellect and that school wanted to imprison me rather then liberate me and thus to destroy my intellect and make me a robot like all education is perhaps done in Malta and perhaps all over the world and thus it is for the individual to rise up ultimately.

In the meantime at 16 and 17 Metal was fun I listened especially to Burzum and around 17 perhaps I also  turned green shamanistic but I don’t recall at this time of studying high school a lot while I also later I continued to declare agnosticism. Later I became alone and took Camus dictum that life is Absurd perhaps we get enlightened in the process. Covey had later at 19 an a half led me to a spiritual direction together with hurts I had and some Dalai Lama books helped me survive while at that year when I was 20 I started to write another book while I quit Burzum... while friends went their way and yet with such books and I don't know how I came across a community and then I found God with in me and I therefore consider myself a Christian. Then I continue writing and finished a 300 A4 page book who I did not know what to do with them how to make sense of them. God found me an editor who is helping me and ultimately the book is forming. My philosophy is written on white in this book and I will publish it on December 2015. My politics turned and I have my thoughts perhaps who I will explain latter, my life in its limitations was adventurous in a search for knowledge and to form the ultimate idea even thou I have can never reach it but I walk in it.... Thou I have no ideas on what to write perhaps... But then we see this is a short Bio and idea... while who knows whether other people will bring order to my writing.

A Pinch Of Sucsess

When we believe success is impossible we criticize it. While sometimes we think success it is mystical that we need to find it rather than create it. Sometimes we believe in luck and again success is the need to create it. Again we can think it is productivity and again this is not success. Success is a holistic formula. It is neither opportunity or recognition or connection. Opportunity make us wait rather than create. Recognition thus not necessary make us happy while connection does not necessary mean that we succeed we need to create. Sometimes we think it is an event but what only events do is just change us shift us. Success is a process. A holistic process. Growth yet is focusing on today. Success is building as what you become is what you do today. Each day should be a masterpiece. What you control is today. Future is only determined by today. So be discipline and do great job today with great decisions. First as you make decision (Having right attitude, priorities, family, health, good thinking, keeping commitment, finances, faith and investing in solid relationship, generosity, keep growing and creating values and then come the discipline. Decisions help us to start while discipline help us to continue. Don't regret one day that you did not start. As you need to create as you need to start with yourself as you have something to give before you get. Focus on what you can see and work on while starting early. So the greater the compound is. The attitude is what makes you enjoy what you do. Happiness is not difficult to experience it is you inside you it is Divine. You need to work. The attitude influence our life. Do effect the outcome of what you do. The confident person makes positivity and prosperity. Create positivity thus succeed and thus become a great Leader.

The book is being edited is nearly finished. 2 chapters remaining. Cool and arranging intro and conclusion an then publishing it in USA Amazon. I’m a poet, writer and future salesman hopefully. Sometimes I painter. In the meantime I’m working as a writer hopefully when I get the car I become a sales man. Zig Ziglar inspired me. For what purpose I’m living. Surely now I realise that man exist for work and to find little bliss in spirituality but he can not live in bliss always if he will do nothing. And man the proper man is an artist poet and a shaman. For surely school did not make me so but I hopefully in these steps of living I becoming  so. A sensitive person a more person that realise reality and identify the things that make me alive. Here in this skizziAssurd blog I write what I feel in the now such as my first poem book Aglo Maltese with essays I also love hiking appart that I love nature but by contrast I love the city the city is life in the end.  But from now I go to write another  book I’m inspired by music especially a lot. This writing is absurd, hopefully I hope. In should start training as well. Last year I did 10 k run, I used to run. But know I don’t know. The Absurd took the more. But running is nice. It great work. But I need to write more and more. Life is a game. Surely. I’m also in a community and I’m a Christian. I believe in biblical investment and yet I need to find an idea for a biblical business, I need to pray a lot if it God will it come yet and hopefully I succeed to sell the next book inspire people to be happy. Ultimately I write to find myself, as sub conscious here this blog is a dustbin while I need to find a subject that matter to me whether I create a community a tribe that follows me will see latter I don’t know but.  Or that neutron is the past and everything leads us to the absurd to what we can not understand. We humans and poets. 

On the Idea of Family

Is the family an universal sphere? What is the family. George Peter Murdock in a study made over 250 societies defined the family as a social group characterized by common; residence, economic cooperation, including adults of both sexes to whom approved sexual relationship exist among children or adopted children. But debates emerges among sociologist in this case in regards what is a family. Such as what is religion, what is a and B. Lyotard use the term language game that the definition depend on the game we are playing and again the debate whether according to this language game of family as we perceive it is in Capitalist mode according to Marxism who Marx nevertheless is not necessary false other sociologist criticize the fact that such family is not universal. Due to the fact that they see other models of the Nayar population who according to Kathleen Gough 1956 the Nayar Girls married their husband before puberty in the tali rite and she had only one duty to mourn to his death there were no other obligations. Then when she reached near puberty or after puberty she could be visited by other man warriors that came from war zones and such wariors left there shield out as a sign of conquered territory. A woman could hold 12 man a man a infinite number of woman. The man who came late who saw the garments warrior could sleep in the Veranda. Man had no duty towards the offspring and a relationship could be terminated therefore there was no economic nucleus only thus children were adopted by same man or other man but not necessary by the biological father. Thus it was a matrilineal society helped by  mother a female sisters with no need of men which Germaine Greer a radical feminist that argues that family life oppress woman as they need to be wife and motherhood is the only thing that gives fulfillment perhaps to woman and so women also are seen as daughters and the fact that young woman are called babes and subject to abuse and so she conclude in a matrilocal model of household. She suggest segregation. These can also help old woman alone. Murdock’s definition is either not universal or else such is that the defenition of family like all defenition can be debated. Some argue that this is a fragmentation of the nucleus family. Woman are more free to work, choose to enter in lesbian relationship, marry or cohabitate, live as single mothers or on their own. These are the reality that the fragmented post modernism produced and are producing. Universality is thus only apt to the language game used.

In my opinion it time to believe to start to define the family first and to do this we need to define the family why it exists.